AlastorOfAlbion

I try to find the words to describe how you left How it affected me...changed me. But nothing compares Every moment we shared alone; The laughter, depth, tears... I'm whats left of those memories I can no longer look back and laugh on them with anyone. So I'm here with a portion of what defined me, what shaped me as a person missing, with no evidence to say its real; only my flawed testimony. Its like Im fighting for survival Gasping for that air of validation that I'm still real I still matter I'm a nihilist who glorifies the experience of death as a method of liberation from fear; but this whole thing is just a sobering reminder of a vo

Reckless every time you cast me out Deafened by all the screams and shouts Finding phantom faults within my speech Yet you never practice what you preach In your eyes it never takes too long Till you seem to find that something's wrong Blaming me for all the ways you lie I just want to be there by your side All your crimes and Every time and... Suddenly it all becomes too clear Every single moment that we shared They were all just products of your fear Did you even ever really care? Suddenly it all turns into rage Left me in the dark with all your sin Keeping me locked within your cage Suddenly disgusted deep within Simply full of malice

My siren is so heavy Pulls me down to watch me drown She said she built a levy Only just to tear it down I should have seen it coming Should have seen that evil gaze The waters slowly rising Each second seems like days She dragged me through her waters Into her abyss Should I even bother? Lost within her kiss Deeper into nothing Filling up each lung Leaves me ever wanting A final song is sung She told me of betrayal She showed me no self worth Love destined to fail Stripped me of my mirth She told me of desire Showed me how she sinned She told she's a liar She tossed me to the wind She dragged me through her waters Into her abyss Should

The Final bout I'm aching I see your body shaking And all our flaws are showing I'm sorry for not knowing In the city night I'm sinking In city lights I'm thinking And I cannot (One more day...) Lift the weight That's pushing on my chest I cannot (One more try...) End the hate I'm losing all that's left And Lord, I know (One more night...) That many things Are better left unsaid Because I know (One more lie...) They're just dreams Deep inside my head Some things will never change and I'm feeling so deranged yet I cannot heed this calling I feel I'm slowly falling In city lights I'm thinking In the city night I'm sinking

So heavy the heart It bows to the weight Of Guilt we depart From year long hate So heavy the soul Be weary the curse And all that we know Will strip us of mirth Within... Heavy lies the crown Screams won't make a sound Seems to me profound Heavy lies the crown Sinking further down Sins stacked by the pound Ode, to love unfound Heavy lies the crown So heavy my feet To trek on my path You've made me so weak And filled me with wrath So heavy the head Sick from all the shame Of years in your bed It all feels the same To you... Heavy lies the crown Screams won't make a sound Seems to me profound Heavy lies the crown S

Deep down, sinking gut Subtle arid tonguing Heart pounding about Clammed Hands I shout In my head It's all in my head Leers and words of whisper Judgment falls upon me Eyes are ever gawking Knowing what I've done In my head It's all in my head...

I wish that my words would flow like music Express my thoughts through strings and tones Paragraphs through bars and measures So you would know you're not alone I wish my voice, would play and play And show you beauty in every day That notes, and octaves Lead Crescendo's in ways That would show you the emotions I hold within Guilt Regret Fear Love But no words can hold such tonality With you so inhibited And my voice is but mute When it pleases you

He used to be a man with firm convictions He used to be the one to save the day He used to be a man of dedication All of the things that seem cliche Time has ways to change a mind Bend them to their destiny But time is not always so kind Fogging all forms of clarity He used to be the man my friend's looked up to He was the guy that always had a smile He was the one that always pushed through sorrow But now, it seems that he is on trial Time has ways to change a mind Bend them to their destiny But time is not always so kind Fogging all forms of clarity Time, please give me back that man The one that I was proud to be Time, pl